I am already over this Term and we just started! I sick and tired of being told I am incompetent, that I am dumb! So I failed maths! alright yeah I was away basically a third of the term and I didn't get to learn most topics so when It came down to knowing what I needed to learn no teacher told me that I needed to know certain things even when I went through the text book questions I still failed. I am going to move to maths A and I don't care what my parents think or what teachers say if I have potential because I don't I just DON'T. I hate that every teacher expects a friggin A+++ from their students. Its harsh and unjust. Alright were not all prodigy children. No one is. not even the smartest girl in my group. No one is perfect! I wish they would stop sending us mixed messages. Yes we know we may miss a class due to an excursion but yes we realise that but we also want to balance out how we achieve in our subjects as much we can. I wish everything could be so much easier or someone could give me a god given solution to life. My mother is having a mid life crisis, she screams at night that her bones hurt, all her bones ache and she can't do anything. My brother is always at UNI 24 hours a day and my sisters are too immature to realise that they need to pitch in and Its all stuck to me and I HATE IT. I wish I could have a break from everything. Ive been suffering like this since I was 10 and I sick and tired of always thinking of others before myself. Its natural. I can't help it, I wish i could turn it off. I hate how everyone thinks that I have to get over everything from last year/this year quick snap...yeah I am trying to but I am not so flexible like that or resistant...Its really going to take me years. I so wish I could just go lie in Jono's arms for the rest of my life...Dear GOD....you blessed my broken road to him.
ex oh ex oh
Blossom
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