Don't know what to do?????

my brain is like mush and i don't know what to do??

last night i didn't sleep at all, i looked at the clock and i read 1am, then 2am and so on. there is just so much going on that i truely cant think. this year so much has happened to me compared to others and it has only been 10 weeks.......

first there was my pa, Pa pennell. i dont even know what to say, you never realise how much you love someone until they are gone.

then there is this stuff with another friend of mine and i personally don't know what to do. You know the truth but in a way it feel as though you ignore it when i am around and focus upon you past. When this happenes i don't know what to do. I don't know how to act or what to say as i feel like a third wheel. I want to talk about it but i can't.

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