don't you hate it when you when something happens and you wish that you could go back in time?? well this week was one of them. Things came out that i didn't want, well i wanted them out but not in the way that they did. i think that i cried at least one each of these past days if not more.
This week i stuffed up massively, you asked me a question and i responded by telling the truth and i guess that is no what you were wanting to hear. But it is not my fault.... you kept on pushing me. if you didn't want to know then you shouldn't of kept asking. i haven't talked to you since monday afternoon and it is making me fustrated. I made myself believe that it was not my fault that you just over reacted but this afternoon you texted me and it made me so angry that you could even think to say that. the more i think abotu it the more i know why you acted that way, i know, i can see it. If you felt that way then you should of just told me and then we wouldn't be in the situation.
On another note, but on the same subject, i feel as though i stuffed up a friendship because all of this. i have been trying how to tell you but i couldn't. we discussed it Thursday but i didn't say all that i needed to, there is more. But i don't want to being it up because i am over there being tension between us. i make me angry that i can't be myself when i am around you. i don't know why, maybe because when ever i see you, you make me think. Therefor making me think about what i want and what you want. I swear i have short term memory loss as i can't remember thursdays convo at all. I need to talk to you again but i can never find the time as everyone is always around but i want to talk to you. Maybe it would be easy for me to just email you but i don't know how to say it in words when i write.
You know who this is
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