I am going crazy! I can't sleep properly and my mind is driving me insane :s
Some girl asked J to her formal and so I was like yeah that's fine until she was all bitchy about it but I still let him go anyway cause i know he'd get angry at me if I didn't and think I didn't trust him...and I do trust him. He had originally told me that this girl lived in Sydney until she asked him and then he fessed up and told the truth but said they were just friends, this sounds like a soap opera but yes it gets worse when I remembered he told me one of his ex's names was Chelsea and i though maybe this was the same girl and he said no and then a few weeks ago he told me he had lied...that she was actually his ex, that he didn't tell me because he thought i wouldn't let him go if I knew...IT GETS WORSE!!!! then the other day when he was at mine we were talking about formals and she came up when we were discussing what he could wear and then he was saying that he was angry at her...and I found out she was the girl who tried to break us up last year cause he never tells me their names he just says 'his ex' instead of there real names so I am so not sure but she has caused me all this pain and I ve never met or talked to her and my heart feels like its being taken away. When I went to the dance the other night I could breath, I was looking at the couples wishing that was me...to have someone be there for me just once instead of lying and bringing me down and making me cry so so so so much cause everything hurts...I want it to stop...I don't want to be me anymore...HELP!!!!!!!!!!
Mrs Jonas
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