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I need to write down what i am thinking inside.....

I need to say what i need to say.
I know what it is inside but when i write it i can't.
I wrote a letter expressing what i needed to say,
But i destroyed it so you can never know what is happening in my head.
I think no one actually knows what is in there, not even me.

I am currently destroying any knowledge of my past life as hard as it may be. I dont want to posses letters, emails or texts. The only thing i can keep are the memories that i can barley remember as it seems like a lifetime ago.

I now feel alone. As if i am the only one here. With no one to love me. With no one to care for...

I am putting the cork in the bottle and never letting my true self emerge.