Lying

I have got to stop lyin....

I lie to you all the time and you dont know it,
I lie cause i don't think you could handle the truth,
I lie as i don't think you could handle the real me,
I lie to protect you from hurting,
I lie as i know people cant handle me telling them the truth,

Whenever someone asks me if i am ok or happy....... i lie,
I sugar coat it
blow things off as if i am ok with it
I never say what i want to say as i am always thinking about their feelings

I tell you a lie to make YOU feel better, to make it seem as if am ok.
I know if People ask me if i am ok with something, i say yes as i know that is the answer that they are wanting,
I make my life crap for the sake of my friends are having a better one.

If anyone has asked me an important question this week or over this year, i think you need to ask me again and this time ask me for my true feelings towards it.

I need to slop this,
I am making my life miserable and making myself angry for not telling the truth to anyone,

Over the past two days, three people have asked me questions and everytime times i have lied to them just to make them feel better. I am trying to weight up the pro's and con's of telling the truth and even though the con's list is longer.....
I know for me it is the right thing to do.

I didn't tell you all the truth as i know you are broken and i am not sure if you can handle me saying this.
Just don't hate me or yell at me just know that i as a person need to do this. I know i will be nervous to tell the truth but i think for you it will in the future make you a better person.

Lying only makes problems, i should know i have told more lies this year than truths

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