I chatted to someone yesterday and she put things in perspective for me……

I understand and it is in my head.

I do really.

I am not just saying this to make things go back to normal but so that you know and we can stop this tenseness that I see.

I always knew that’s what you would eventually want but me being selfish kept pushing you and didn’t put your problems into what I did or said. In your letters you say that you pushed me, when I actual fact I was the one pushing you. Therefore this doesn’t make me the ‘good guy’ in this story but instead you get this role. I get the ungrateful, pushy bitch that makes life complicated role instead.

And For this I am SORRY.

Anyway the main message for this is to explain to you that I understand, everything has sunk in and I am ok with that. You know that I will always be there for you no matter what but I need you to talk to me again. I feel as though I have done something to make you feel this way. People tell me that it isn’t me but instead that you are just stressed but I totally don’t believe them.

By posting this blog I am sorry for bringing it up again and for that I am sorry. I know it is hard to talk about but I really want you to know this……….

I am not sure the next time you will read this or even if you will but I needed a way to say this and hopefully you would eventually read this.

Xx