mini hate

I tried to force myself to not write on this page. I thought if i didn't depend on this blog that i could grow as a person. So i am just going to make this general, skim the surface of a couple of issues.

1. Am i being replaced? Am i not as interesting as i was before? Why do you wish not to communicate with me, do i seem different? I thought you were there for me, but your aren't and that isn't like you.

2. Is something wrong with my appearance? Is my behavior so terrible that you don't look at me? I just don't understand you.

3. Why did you automatically assume and look at me for that statement was spoken. Would you be so shocked if i had. I know this shouldn't annoy me but it does. For you to have his already perceived image of me is wrong. I am nothing like that idol. I have done things that i am not proud of and if given the opportunity i would take it back and you sit there and jump on me cause there is the slightest possibility i might not fit this model you see me in. The thing is you will never know of this cause you don't talk to me anymore, don't include me in your life.

4. I really hope we talk more. I have never really written about work before but i like this. You are quiet and don't really speak, something completely different to who i am but it works. You are an interesting character :)

5. James.... what do i say. I can't wait for these next couple of weeks to go by so i never have to see your face again. You put people down for being nice to you. I help you with your assignments and you tell me that mine is wrong or shit. I have been around smart people my whole schooling life. My friends are all intelligent and i don't really fit in. At university i am on the highest marks within my group and you tell me that i am wrong. How about you just shut up and actually do the assignment so i don't have to help you.