"That Should be me"

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other girl,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does she love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!


That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' her where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my
It's working 'cause you know that,...

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3
Never should've let you go
That should be me!!<3

26/3/11..... Bottle...... Mark Sloan

Last Saturday wasn't my night.

My brain is playing tricks on me. I recently see a trend when I log on to blogger, everyone seem to be saying what they want but I don't want to. Everyone has a box and within this box we have parts of ourself that we keep hidden from conflict. If we wish we can show someone or if we are private we keep them to ourself. I lost all of my treasures in my box, I thought I had a least one but it turns out that I don't.

Saturday I just needed to be by myself for a while, breathe in the cold Autumn air and relax. I knew that you suspected that something was up with me and that you wanted me to know that you were they for me but if I tell you, then I wont have anything in my box. I NEED something in this box. Something that makes me feel needed, an actual person, complex.

I feel empty. I should have grabbed onto you and not let go then maybe I would have found that missing treasure I thought I possessed. I saw this treasure as being a metaphor for our friendship. I remember the day I lost this treasure. I had longed for something to show me a new direction, give me hope. I was so excited that I had something. It was the simplest thing ever in the world but to me, it made me not feel empty for a while. If I could go back to last Saturday I wouldn't let go.

If I could be given a time machine to travel to any point in time I wouldn't waste it on the chance to star in an episode of Diagnosis Murder with Dick Van Dyke instead I would go back to last Saturday. Nothing else in my past matters more than last Saturday.

I want my Treasure back . If you can help, please do so I don't feel empty all the time.

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now